personal netspace

Notes ❯ Sun 2023-09-10 04:19

Just the other day, I decommissioned my bespoke, self-hosted Wireguard VPN and AdGuard infrastructure, and replaced them with a Tailscale network, Mullvad exit nodes, and NextDNS. Today, I decommissioned both my internal and external Gitea servers, and moved all of my repos (public and private) back to Github.

I honestly don't know if I'm having a mid-life crisis, or if I've simply reached the apex of my growing intolerance for tilting at windmills. I used to be such an ardent self-hoster, and these days I just don't care to hassle with it in the slightest. (And it is a hassle. It's not by coincidence that this Github move follows on the heels of a multi-day outage with my public repo server, which required a non-trivial amount of my attention to resolve.) Recently, I've even caught myself actively looking for things I can hand off to someone else, and just pay them to deal with it.

I think this all really comes down to personal bandwidth, and the value I increasingly place on it these days. Perhaps there is some underlying awareness of my own mortality at play (I'm not a spring chicken, after all). Or maybe it's the practical recognition that there are only so many hours in the day, and there are things I want to accomplish that are far more important to me than running a farm of personal servers to provide services that someone else is more than willing to provide me for pennies a day.

Older and wiser? Or just lazier? I will concede that either possibility (and perhaps, even both!) may be truth.